how do you save a broken soul? how do you mend a heart that's been torn apart? how do you stop the tears from flowing? how do you find the soul lost in darkness?
Yesterday was supposed to be a half day but my dad heard me wrongly and thought I wanted to come into work in the afternoon and thus both my parents didn't wake me up. I had woken up around 8am and was wondering why no one came to knock on my door. In my hazy and sleepy state of mind, I concluded that they probably weren't going to work [I also dunno why I thought of that] and I went back to bed only to wake up at around 10am. It was only then that I went out of my room in search of them. To my horror, the house was empty except for my maid and granny. So I quickly called my dad and found out that he was at work -____-||| *bleah*
So that was how I 'escaped' work. Haha! I'm that good right? Hoho! Anyway I went to Bugis with Tricia [AGAIN!] to help her shop around. Ever since I told her that those born in the year of the Rat ought to wear colours such as red, orange, gold and white, she insisted on getting something red. Haha! Well, I'm not complaining as they are my favourite colours afterall *winks*
While walking around Bugis Village, I saw the sling bag that I have been eyeing [is it spelt like that?] ever since I came back. But guess what?! They have a slightly smaller version of it which is so much more kawaii-er!!! Keke! Needless to say I didn't buy any coz they don't have have the colour/pattern that I would like to have. Haha. Had you guys there for a moment didn't I *grins* Anyways, I saw more nice & cheap dresses!! UGH!!BUT I didn't buy any not because I'm controlling my spending but more because they don't have the colour that I want. Hehz =X Yea yea... I'm terrible.
After shopping we met up with the brudder and went to catch the movie American Gangster. It was truly an awesome movie apart from that irritating guy behind me. More on him later. The movie is apparently based on a true story and Russell Crowe played the good cop bad husband role rather well. Denzel was great acting as the mafia head and using his own methods to get even with those who refuse to work properly with him. For those of you who haven't watch this movie, you should catch it. I would give it a 4 out of 5 popcorns rating. I don't mind watching it again if you'll pay for half my ticket *hint hint* It's definitely wayYyy much better than Cloverfield [for me at least] =P
Now on to that irritating guy who was sitting directly behind me. I tell you I would have strangled that bastard. Each time he gets up to go God-knows-where, he has to use my seat to lift his butt off the chair and when he returns, he does the same damn thing again to sit down!!! Me and Tricia were freaking irritated with him la... It's like macam his damn butt is made of gold or what. So heavy until need something to help him lift up and sit down meh?! Basket!
Enough about that golden-butt guy and on to something better. Apparently the brudder wanted to go take a leak [after the movie] but we gals didn't need to so we waited outside for him. I was about to comment that he went to JB to go toilet coz he was damn long la when guess who appeared! ZIWAN!!! But no that's not the best part. Me and Tricia were quite surprised to see her so we asked whether she was here to watch a movie. She said yep and so I asked what movie. You can never believe it, we were watching the same movie, in the same theater, sitting in the same row and just 1 seat away!!! As the brudder has mentioned, if it was a comedy that we had watched, we would definitely have known that she was sitting next to us. Hahahahaha!! *rotfl*
After that we had Ben & Jerry's for desserts. Yummy~~ I think I definitely have to stop procrastinating and get down to doing the pilates =X
For some strange reason, the song Bare Necessities sung by Baloo in The Jungle Book keeps popping in my head this evening. Hmmm... I guess it's time to re-visit The Jungle Book soonish =PPPP
I just thought of another place that I would like to go... Bottle Tree Park!! Would you bring me there??
"cause i wanna have a really true love... don't ever wanna have to go and give you up... stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring... and i wanna make it worth the fight... what have we been doing for all this time... baby if we're gonna do it come and do it right..."
All of these lines across my face Tell you the story of who I am So many stories of where I've been And how I got to where I am But these stories don't mean anything When you've got no one to tell them to It's true...I was made for you I climbed across the mountain tops Swam all across the ocean blue I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules But baby I broke them all for you Because even when I was flat broke You made me feel like a million bucks You do I was made for you You see the smile that's on my mouth It's hiding the words that don't come out And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed They don't know my head is a mess No, they don't know who I really am And they don't know what I've been through like you do And I was made for you... All of these lines across my face Tell you the story of who I am So many stories of where I've been And how I got to where I am But these stories don't mean anything When you've got no one to tell them to It's true...I was made for you
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Monday, January 21, 2008
The sore throat is gone but the coughs are still hanging around. Sometimes I cough so hard, it feels as if my throat is gonna split open. *bleah*
The cramps are back. More dreadful than ever, making me extremely moody and unfriendly. With mood swings aplenty, I am reluctant to do anything. I just wanna sleep it off but unfortunately sleep eludes me. So I went to grab my DS and started playing until my hand hurts and my body aches which are signals for me to stop playing and get outta bed.
I think I should give my DS a name... Hmmm... What name would be good? It's white in colour. Whitey? Cloud? Fluff? I'm suggesting insane names! LOL!
After so many weeks, you have come back to haunt my dreams. I suppose it was a pleasant dream coz I totally couldn't remember what it was about only that there was you and me... I woke up feeling that same sense of loss mingled with sadness and a twinge of pain.
I'm a miserable, stupidly-blinded fool...
"take me away...to a place faraway...where there aren't any memories of you..."
Had gone to see the doc and realized that doc fees have gone up! *double saderation* Now I have a dry cough which hurts my throat everytime I cough. That sentence sounds kinda funny.. Haha.. Each time I cough, it feels as though I'm trying to cough out my esophagus. Yes yes, I'm throwing out scientific words cannot meh? =p I'm a science student so I should start using my science knowledge as often as I blog [which btw is not that often. HAHA!].
Okay that part was totally me crapping away. It's been a long while since I last crapped. With someone or with anyone for that matter. There isn't much to crap about since life is so full of crap.
I was reading 8Days when I realized how much it has changed. First, it's size has shrunk and now it can fit into my other smaller-than-A4 size bags [YAY!] which means I can easily carry it around and flip through it when I'm bored [like that will happen when I have my DS Lite with almost 20 games inside. HEHE!]. Second, half the magazine is now made of normal paper not glossy paper which means that it's recyclable!! I have become quite enviro-friendly after spending those 'few' months in Perth.
Another good news! My boxes have ARRIVED!! Yahooo!!! Now I have my shoes, bags, clothes, books and my multi-coloured enviro-friendly bags from Cotton On to carry around. Awesome! And I can finally pass Tricia dear the last of her present. Hoho! But I have yet to unpack it though coz just the thought of opening them and finding places for the things inside turns me off and I rather do something else like watching tv or playing my DS. Yea yea... I'm hooked. So sue me! =P
Anyway as I was flipping thru 8Days, I suddenly realized that there's quite a few things I wanna do or watch but lacking the funds and the correct company. I wanna watch Beauty World coz it's a lovely musical. I can still vaguely remember the Beauty World musical starring Sharon Au from years back. I felt that it was an awesome performance by her and there isn't anyone else who was best suited for that role. Thus I wanted to watch the current one as to compare which is the better one. Unfortunately I only just realized a few days back that the production will be ending this Saturday. *sigh*
Other things that I wanna do is like going to the zoo, night safari, watching movie at the Omni Theatre coz they are currently showing some movie called Secrets Of The Pharaohs, revisiting Sentosa coz I heard that they are building or have built some new attractions and last but not least trying out the chocolate buffet at Fullerton.
Alot of things have changed. Everything and everyone is moving so fast and I feel myself lagging behind without any motivation to move with them.
"too often, the thing we want the most is the thing we can't have... and i'm ashamed to say that i still want it after all this time, after all the pain, after all the hurts..."
It's sucks to be sick when you're unemployed =(((((
"I'm still lost and running but I can't seem to escape..."
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
Opps... I did it again! I went on a huge shopping spree aka retail therapy. *le sigh*
I bought 2 dresses and a belt a few weeks ago and I managed to stay away from the malls for a couple of weeks. Yesterday met Tricia darling to shop around Bugis. I bought another 2 dresses [they were damn cheap la... $10 each only lor], 1 top, a bag [hehe] and my eye cream. *sigh* Confirmed spent about $100 at least yesterday.
Then today was supposed to accompany someone for shopping and in the end I bought these 2 tops from G2000 -___- I got lousy willpower. I'm gonna be a recluse for the next few weeks until CNY so that I can refrain from unnecessary spending =X
"the beautiful, well-concocted lies...never again..."
I'm gonna blog about what happened yesterday. Mummy came to fetch us home and she informed me that the ECP is jammed coz there's this woman attempting to commit suicide at the Sheares Bridge [hope I spelt correctly].
Anyway I excitedly asked her which part of Sheares Bridge and whether or not the woman was still there. Slowly we arrived at the 'crime scene'. The lady was still sitting on the railings of the bridge facing the river. There were at least 6 police cars and 2 ambulances parked on the extreme left lane. Some of the policemen were directing traffic while the others were standing around. I wanted to take a snap shot of the lady and post the photo here and also send it to the newspapers but this mega huge cement truck was driving in between and blocked my view. *ROAR*
Mummy called me a sadist but then again I am one what! But that's not my point. Traffic was smoother after this and mummy started discussing about reasons as to why she thinks the lady is attempting to commit suicide. She feels that it's because of her children. They made her so angry that she decided to kill herself. *rolls eyes* I think NOT! I totally disagreed with her and here is my point points rather...
I totally feel it's because of MEN or LOVE. Why so? Coz it's not logical for a woman to kill herself due to her children. If it's really because of her children, she would either cry until she's dried up like a prune OR hit the kid OR hit the kid while crying until she's dried up like a prune. Not true?! Most chinese drama serials all show that lor. It's not as if it's unpredictable. Now when it comes to love and men, women tend to become blind. Thus the phrase "Love is blind" is so aptly applied. The man she loved probably dumped her after using up all her money or something. Ok ok... I've got a vivid imagination due to watching too much chinese dramas =p The poor lady. I hope she didn't jump and is still healthy and alive right now. I'm not that sadistic to wish that she dies alright!! It's not worth killing yourself over some stupid man. GAH!!
On to my second point, there were so many policemen but I didn't see anyone approaching her to try and coax her to get down from the railings and onto firm ground. Funny right? They were just standing a distance from her. I don't know how long has the lady been sitting there neither do I know how long have the policemen been there but shouldn't they be doing something?! Aren't our policemen trained to handle psychologically disturbed people??
Last point. I think I saw Ming Hwee there!! He was one of the policeman. I'm not sure whether my eyes were deceiving me coz it was only a fast & passing glance but it sure as hell did look like him. Anyone knows??
We headed to the giant Giant [haha!] to do the usual groceries and mummy bought shark's fin! Yay!! We'll be having shark's fin soup for CNY. Yeah yeah... I know... The poor sharks. *apologetic face* But...But...I...don't...don't...always eat it leh! The only time would be during someone's wedding or during CNY [very very very seldom]. So PETA [is it the correct organization??] please please forgive me this once??
The parents have officially left Singapore for Genting. Know what this means?? *drum roll* I'M HAVING THE CAR FOR THE WEEKEND!! BUT there's nowhere and no one to accompany me *saderation* =((((((( I can't believe after driving for so long mummy is still worried about my driving skills -____-||||
I sent them to the bus 'depot' and then drove back home. Nothing much lor! *mumble grumbles*
On a different side note, my Ares can't work!!! *wails* Every time I try to get it connected it just states 'connecting' for like blardy long la... Is Ares illegal in SG already or it's just my lappie that's going bonkers?? Any nice, kind souls can download songs for me? I can pass you the list of them =DDD
On a totally different side note, I finally attempted Mario Party on my DS Lite. It's shiok but the graphics ain't as good. Oh wells, I can't complain as long as I can play it. Hurhur... The mini games are so different from game cube and alot more fun I feel. Hehe...
Gonna send more application forms so that I can let mummy know that I did do them then she'll stop nagging. *le sigh*
Year 2007 passed pretty fast and yet not too fast. It almost seem like yesterday when I was freaking nervous and excited to head to Perth for studies. Haha... Well time to make resolutions for this year yet again.
**Resolutions 2008:
Less pigging out coz I have been gaining kgs ever since I returned to SG [-_-] weird ain't it that I gained weight back home instead of in Perth. LOL!
Attempt to try out the pilates DVD that I bought over at Perth to lose the damn weight.
Try to be nicer to people around me --> I think I make this every year but I always fail to adhere to it =X
Clear my closets & clothes. Sort them out --> I make this every year and each time I clear my clothes, I find space to purchase new & prettier ones to fill up the space XD *gauffs*
Save money so that I can travel around more often! Hoho!
I think those are the resolutions that I will make for now. If I make too many, it would be hard for me to try and achieve them. Five is more than enough for me to handle now. Keke...
Photos taken from my various and numerous outings are uploaded already. They can be view & downloaded from my photoblog. Feel free k!
A new year means time to list out the hellos and goodbyes...
The hellos:
1. My latest toy!! Many thanks to Cyril. I was too stunned that I didn't thank you properly.
4. My rubber keyboard which makes typing WOLS for me!!
The goodbyes:
1. To Perth and my room there.
2. To studies!! Wooohooo~ I finally graduated but with not so awesome results *bleah*
3. To Maccas there. They still owe me $$$ btw *annoyed*
4. To my car *sob sob*
5. To the lifestyle & shopping there *saderation* 6. And finally to you... I always knew that you weren't ready but I chose to deny it. I chose to head forward coz deep in me I felt that one day you would come through. I guess I was wrong. ------------------------------------------------------------------
I've fixed the faulty links to other blogs. Apparently I typed in the wrong html -___- have I ever mentioned how much I dislike html?!?! Anyway I'm gonna order things from Victoria's Secret. If any of you have any orders, please please let me know ASAP! Drop me a msg on MSN/my mobile or email me!
That's all I wanna blog about at the moment. I'm off to play my DS & watch tv =p
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